eklektrik

friend?

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 03:30:16 GMT

Ok so i admit it i can be a bitch and if anyone can test that theory please go right ahead and devulge your inner desires to be the subject of my torment...i have lost many a boy fiend because they didn't believe i could be anything but nice....

so the other day i looked at my life and realized that i am sad lonely individual with alot of explaining to do...and at this point i would like to say i know who my close friends are and that i owe them alot for being such wonderful people...(kip, koren, jess, cara, nick, bid) you are my saviors but then there are the others that i love with all my heart but just don't feel that if my life was slowly spiraling the gurgling drain i would feel comfortable calling on in need...that said i also know friendship is always found in the most trying of place...

you know i don't think there are enough words for friendship based categories....
ok so we have...best friend, friend and equatince, home and enemy...

To me a friend is what i would would call my close friends because anless they are there to spoon your splattered carcass from a road all the while washing away the blood with their tears of the great times they have shared with you what kind of friends are they...a best friend for me encompasses the friend catagory aswell it is that person that you share a little peice of yourself with and thats why losing them would hurt so much because you can never get that peice back and they will carry it with them for life...it should always remind them that there is something good in the world so long as they still love you....so when that person is gone due to distrust or some kind of meliciouse act it then serves as a tiny peice of acid a cancer..but the good will always outweigh the bad...tat person may change from day to day a best friend is the one that you would kill for( i would do that for all my friends though..hehehe)a best friend you can't share everything with because everyone has something special to offer...and what is the point of making the crust if you are going to throw it away....just enjoy the bread for every little aspect it brings you... just being with them makes you smile there are no tantrums and when you havnt spoke to them in months or years it shouldnt matter because the moment you see them everything is better evrything is the same because we don't change that much we are always the same people and our friends should change with us...

everyone else is somewhere between friend and equaitance...i'd have to say that all of my people in that catagory are really up the top...and some a bit further down but they still have that tiny little grain of you that one day they will wake up and remember you and have a smile...or an empty heart...they jump in and out of my friend basis and they all share equal parts of my life...these are the little but also the big bits that hold up the rest, sometimes you don't speak to them for ages but when you do all you can say is..." gotta love.......they make my day"

and then there are enemy's i only had one enemy...for reasons i can't even remember but their name made my stomach turn...which what i realise now was not them but my own failures and misgivings as a friend...i should be able to understand them adn them me but somehow we went different ways....i am glad to say i no longer have an enemy...that person i would like to say that i am making an extremly big effort to be nice to because an enemy is poison they rip apart all the good your friends have done and make you a bittter resentful person withought even doing anything....only baby steps for me but i am trying with all my might to suck it up and bea person not an asshole...i am determined never to fill this catagory again because life isn't worth it and i should be spending more time embracing the people i love not being negative towards the people i don't

finally there is home a home is a place where you feel comfortable and you can always go to curl up and be yourself all masks are off you are the real you and there is nothing that those four walls can't do...it is your safe haven...i don't have a home....there are no four walls that protect me and comfort me and i can be myself in ...to me my friends are my home they are what keep me warm they are what wipe away my tears they are what sees me as the real me ...

because at the end of the day what is a dodgy pile of briks to a hug....money can't buy love...

life as a crazed hobo..

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 03:50:04 GMT

yeah so my week was ok....it had it's dizzing highs (any time not working) and crushing lowes (work).

Friday was excrutiatingly good...i had mucho enjoyment....just went to jess' house and bummed around trying to find food in every crevice....
jess kept apologising for not many people being there....all i can say is good...mre attention for me ..muhuhhahahahaha.. jess lent me her photo's which is great and i finally learned how to use a scanner after all these years of borish picturless hell....so i shall be delivering them on disk to those who wish for the (aka only jess myself and those elite entities that jess so prefers...)

which reminds me i also wish to posess all of jesses digital photo's as they can be added to my evergrowing tab at the photo printing lab...aka...my bubblejet...

saturday was hellish ....i had to drag my sorry ass to work wich was boring as hell and made me want to kill everyone in the paddington region...(yes kirsty you stupid slag that inclused you!!)...i have decided i hate my job alredy only liking one person there has alot to do with it...plus they all look really weird...it must be a criterium for working there...myself included...

kip picked me up from work and people were ment to come ove but i cancelled because i thought i had better things to do...i was worng...so bored i went for a run....yes me running it is not a joke...and felt so revolting about it i went to the servo and whacked $50 worth of junk food on my credit card....wise spending...

sunday did too much mindless shopping for homewares that i could'nt afford however have vowed to save my pennies (what pennies..i am broke as hell) for the most divine mattress in the world...when that day comes i am never leaving bed...mmmm...mattress...then we had bbq....HEAVEN...so much heaven!!

dropped koren to the airport today (wwaaaahhh who will smoke with me!!!) at least i get the car....and she will be gone for a week..

however kip is also going away for work wich will leave me by myself with darran....(if you thought you could outwing, mope or be more annoyying than him you are sorely mistaken)...so life is hel hell HELL on a stick...calling all friends who want to dostract me this is yourweek to shine..!!

lessons in life learnt in one day

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 05:53:34 GMT

ok so i have not written anything for a while..it's amazing how un-motivated you can be when you have all the time in the world....interesting...

so anyway cara's 21st/leaving party (she's fucking of and ditching all our sorry souls) was last night .....all in all an interesting night...i am actually alot more upset by it than i thought i would be...talk about putting all your eggs in one basket then watching them pack themselves in their carton and racking off to another country...wich leaves me with about nothing squared...yes it's true because your boyfriends syblings don't count no matter how good friends they are with you..

lesson 1: don't put your eggs in one baskets (having good friends is the best thing you can ever have but don't make it impossible to function withought them)

lesson 2: don't underappreciate something good becasue you will regret it more than you know...

Told way too many embarrassing things about myself to other people when drunk...

lesson 3: go home when your time is up...the pillow never tells.....messy times messy times.

invited around half the party to my house at some point for dinner...can't remeber who, when or why...

lesson 4 : don't make plans when your too drunk to remember them....

when i got home around four the neighbours came over and we took the dogs for a walk..ok ziggy is scared of their dog so it was more like taking the dogs for a cower and a harass...
it was ok till i fell asleep in some kind of swoony stupor...

but yes good party cara shitty venue...love ya..

musical houses...

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 12:37:54 GMT

they call me the matchmaker man....not pecause i match people with other people but because i match people with solutions to their problems....today blondie (yes thats her name) a girl from my work rang me and told me she no longer had a house...so what do i do in ten minutesi have found her a house because it is un humanly possible for me to watch an innocent human being sleep on a house in campsie...it was good though it killed three hours on the phone at work and elayna for two weeks will have a flatmate then hopefully darran will amscrey and swap houses with blondie so in two weeks we may just have a flatmate that i will be able to talk to and not feel like punching in the head..hahahaha...no seriously...time is getting better i spoke to my boss and soon i will go to thde wynyard store and fill in for the manager there so yes it's back to the mporning house and i will have someone to catch the train home with yes my home her home...joy....

ok ok i am super lazy

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 12:02:46 GMT

ok lazy is not the word...my flatmates are super crap at managing not to blow up the entire internet network in the house...not like we are paying for it we are loaning it from our neighbours...hahaha..

ok so here is the lo down....went to bdo on thursday ...had a rockin time hanging out with the girl(cara) the line up was pretty lame but what can you do when the headlining act hasn't finished their album yet ?(yes tool i am talking to you)...grrrrr....but all in all have to say the most rockinist were 2manydjs...the RAAAAWWWKKKEEEDDD.....i danced till i could no longer stand because lets face it it's the only workout i am getting all year....

hrrrrmmm what else...friday sushi train...ok what could be better than food parading itself around infront of you and sushi chefs screaming random things to the wind...nothing i tell you NOTHING....!!!..

On that note i have decided a couple of dream careers...

1. lady who lunches.
2. sushi chef.
3. ok thats all i got...hahaha...

elayna moved on saturday it was a pretty complex move that envolved one load and like nothing done by me...(thats my kind of move) her house is er...interesting it has smalkl levels and four of the ...all i can say is hello toned up ass...

today we had stocktake at work...most borng thing in the world......kill me...beep..beep...beep...beep...beep... agrahhh!!!

hooray for the morning shift...

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 11:06:32 GMT

today I got to do the morning shift...7:30-4...best shift ever seeings your pretty much asleep till 11 and then you wake up and leave work early enough for a nap...yes it is a gloriouse life....but damned evening shift tomorrow it takes so much longer...bleh....we went to ingleburn for dinner tonight my go best indian resteraunt ever..food uber yummm and half price on tuesdays....mmmmm take away for lunch tomorrow....ok i'm blabbing and no one cares hahahaha....big day out in two days....yay..

I hate the foul smell of Hobo

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 10:08:32 GMT

ok today it was drag my sorry ass back to work for another week day...yes i hate work and it seems i can never leave....i chucked a huge tantrum and told the boss where to stick her job three weeks ago....she accepted my resignation now it seems they have me back there for another three weeks...it's like it can never end....

Now they have me in the bountiful supply of filth that is town hall station...

10 Things I hate about town hall station
1. There is no sushi in the immidiate vivinity
2. It is filled with revolting smelly old people.
3. There is a hobo that sleeps on the door that leaves crumbs of what looks like soap and shouts crazy obscenities at you whenever you try and open the dooror say anything to her. She has poo coloured lipstick all over her face.
4. The mr minit guy although he is nice likes to stare constantly into the store.
5. There is nowhere to hide from the prying eyes of the cameras.
6. Mad hobos that feel it completly necissary to stare at my tits.
7. It is hot as hell and lacks enough oxygen to satify an ant.
8. People are rude especially when they are trying to cheat you out of money.
9. It smells like doughnuts, wich sounds good exept when trapped hungry or trying not to eat crap.
10. It brings out my inner axe weilding murderer and makes me want to scub 50 layers of skin off everyday...

I have to write my resume and get my ass out of that shit hole before I too turn into the poo coloured lipstick wearing crunb dropping hobo sleeping on the door...

My 21st

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 12:48:05 GMT

Yeah ok last night was my 21st birthday party....I thought it would be a good note to start off on..The day started with some waking up to my dad tying to get out of coming to my party by bringing me flowers at the crack of dawn...by crack i mean there was a whole lot of morning ass crack ...eyes crusted over by too much sushimi and wine at ju ju's the night before.....

The rest of the day included alot of waiting to get my hair dyed and cut by a trannie wearing hot pants...Yes mildly convincing exept for the mannie voice...

......when i got home it wasn't long until a babbling cara and a extremly cheerie jess gaggled through the door....followed shortly by an extremly slow and messie getting ready...threatening to leave withought my resident snails we jumped in a cab that nearly blew up around 50 times backfiring and chugging the whole way...

PARTY:....much proud of general turnout and alcahol consumption....
the Evening started out as a fairly quiet one with only my five true faithfuls (cara, jess, koren, elayna and mesloon) being the only ones for two hours....then blammo there they all were banging their asses up the stairs and getting that party started....

I can't remember too much of the night really just that it was a rip roaring good time and i am so happy that i have such wonderful loving friends......my mum spent most of the night yelling at me because i was drinking too much...boy was she mad when they pulled out the 21 shots which i cleaned up nicely....unlike elayna who gave most of hers away and winged alot...around 45 minuited later my lovely kip was steering me to pizza and then of course in extreme style i was 'asked to leave' when i say leave i mean pushed and stumbled into the car where i can't remember much more until i was woken by my newly shaven head lesbian neighbour Ellie...gotta love that girl all style and grace....

rating for party 10/10 I didn't spew...very very proud...sorry if i couldn't remember most of the night but does that not say it was a good night...